tied to a chair

vampire goddess · Post by **vampire goddess** » Sun Nov 09, 2003 4:36 pm

i feel like shit. i feel like i can't even move some days. i can't stretch, breathe or speak. i am tied to nothing but an armchair, duct tape over my mouth, tears stream down my face as i look around the abandoned room. i see people on the other side of the one sided mirror in front of me. i scream and scream, the rope cutting into my wrists, as i squirm and writhe to get out of my prison. i know if i don't do something i am going to die here. . i only speak when it is given permission by you. i under your control..i am under your turf, your terms, your slave..i fucking hate you. if i could i would spit on your face, and make you lick it off as it runs slowly down. i would make you feel like you were nothing in this chair. i invision everything i want to do to you, as tears pour down my face like a pitcher of water, because i know i am helpless... because you will win. like always, you will win. i know why you do this to me, because i am more flamboyant, prettier, and funnier than you are and you hate that about me. you hate the fact that you are nothing without me, yet you need my submission to you to make you stronger.
you take everything from me, leaving me with only the memories , and even then you steal them. giving me nothing to look forward to except for the blank walls in a dead room with the things that you fear. i want to kill you. i want to rip your heart out and feed on it, suck the blood out, and put the lifeless organ back into your lifeless shell of a body. because you are nothing.
i see you through the mirror... sitting in a corner, by yourself. you look around the room and you feel alone, i know you do, becaue i feel it too. you feel like an idiot, sitting there all by yourself with no one to talk to but the paint chips falling off of the walls, because you don't feel like you are good enough. you have nothing in common with them, and for a second you think of letting me go. but then you realize that you will be tied up in here. with your thoughts, and that scares you so much that you can't think, your breathe tightens, and you almost cry. but you push back those tears and you keep me in here because you know i can handle all those thoughts and those demons of your past and everything else that you are scared of. you know i am the stronger person, you know that i can handle whatever fear they throw at you.
i wish i could let me go. i wish for one second i could feel ok again, and not worry about who i am, to let them both combine in a sweet symphony that makes up myself. but i can't, i just can't... because the demons only let certain parts of me free. the parts that can't survive without the tough guy.

vicious_blood · Post by **vicious_blood** » Mon Nov 10, 2003 9:08 am

vampire goddess wrote: i want to kill you. i want to rip your heart out and feed on it, suck the blood out, and put the lifeless organ back into your lifeless shell of a body. because you are nothing.

*Sigh*...That's how I feel all the time.

I like it and I think you should write more often.

vampire goddess · Post by **vampire goddess** » Wed Nov 12, 2003 3:54 am

why thank you sweetie... i don't think i am that great. .... :shrug:

vicious_blood · Post by **vicious_blood** » Wed Nov 12, 2003 9:44 am

Doesn't matter, I still think you should write more often...

I'm a chicken and don't wanna post anything on here.

vampire goddess · Post by **vampire goddess** » Wed Nov 12, 2003 2:48 pm

fuck the ridicule of others, you should do it for yourself.
sorry had a punk rock moment.

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