the trick isnt getting fucked up, meds, or any of the above.satanskitten wrote:So seriously what's the key to turning emotions off? I managed to hit a point Sat after LOTS of alcohol and having my heart ripped out stomped on and scooped back up that I actually was numb enough to have a tiny bit of fun. of course I was so trashed that I don't remember how I acted and probably made a complete fool of myself. anyways, this does not seem a cost effective method of killing my emotions. So should I continue with this therapy or go back on the Celexa that I'm supposed to be on anyways?
its just saying fuckit this is stupid and do something else.
really.
people overcomplicate shit
ive got tons of things i think about alot that depress me from my life, everynow and then everyone needs a fifth and an empty house to scream at things that arent there. but that should be rare.
being numb isnt a bad thing.
milk it.
enjoy it. use it for an excuse to find things you want to do and go do them.
i went thru hell and back, got beat up, jailed, addicted, evicted, left for dead, had my heart ripped out, and i barely complained the whole time. rarely do i meet people that went thru the ringer as bad as i did. so i just did lots of drugs thinking it would make shit ok.then when i got clean i realized hey i dont feel shit. i havent in YEARS. i realized personal pain shouldnt be your reason for not caring, that means your taking life to fucking seriously.
you shouldnt care because this is a fucking joke.
yea life is pain, everything you have your gonna lose, and we are gonna die. we are alone.
SO WHAT. now i know the worst that can happen, fuckit.
its not like it can get any worse, might as well do whatever ya damn well please.
the trick to shutting your emotions off is realizing the only reason you have them is because you were raised being told you have em and people constantly tell ya you have em
i quit beliving in santa, i quit believing i have emotions.
simple.
i only claim to have emotions when im drunk
because im drunk.
lol.
just lighten up, find shit you enjoy, and enjoy the ride.
hope things look up, because you know they are gonna look down. pain is reality, i recommend accpeting your pain and flaws and use them to motivate you to greatness.
or at least to a damn good bar tab.