R.I.P. jesus
Posted: Sun Apr 18, 2004 10:44 am
Well you all mustve red about jesus' problems with drugs and his family.. he used to come here to read al the time if not post......
Last night i walked over to vance's house to hang out for a few hours. i figured id spend some time with him, u know, chear him up a bit. i knew he could use some company. i figured it would be jest like any other nite. we'd watch tv, listen to some dimmu borgir, maybe order a pizza then read the forums. i was wrong. when i got to his hous his mther invited me in and told me vance was downstairs. she said hed been down there in teh basement all day. when i opened the door it was picht blck exept for the tv. i flicked on the black light and so vance lying on the couch and figgured he was alseep. i joking tossed him off the couch to get him up and when he fell over my heart sunk and i jumped back. there was dryed up blood staynes that painted the whole couch as well as his clothes. i saw a slash mark on his wrist... he mustve bled himself to death ...we used to play that game 'bleeder' and we were probably going to play it then but this time it wasnt a ggame... i panikked and i wanted to call 911 but i dodnt know if i could stay at the seen any longer. on the coffee table that was usually litterd with tampon porn and farside comics sat only a letter written in black gel pen. you know what this was... it said he had nowhere else to turn and that the world and god had abandoned him. it broke my black heart to read the sorrow and rage in the paper. i felt paralized with anger and sadness... i may have been his only friend in the world and if i had been there earlier maybe i coudlve chhanged the outcome of this hole senario. when i finally gained enough composure to go upstairs and tell him mother, she was nowhere to be found...she probably still hasnt come back yet and thinks her son is just being a lazy good-for-nuthing. i was at a los for actions. all i could do was go back downstairs and put him back on the couch... i know it couldnt have possibly been the right thing to do and im stressing aboiut weather or not i shouldve called somebody... but to see my friend like that put me nto a state of paralysis... there honestly wasnt a thing i could do in my mind that would rektify the situation...
it hurts using this board because he said he always used to come here adn read what you people had to say (althow he never posted much).
guys this im dead serious here. if there is anybody in your life that you can see is showing signs of instability or emotioanl difficulty please talk to him. make him opn up. i didnt know until i read the note that i was all that he had in the world. i jest wish there was more i coudlve done to save him...
Vance Lucas
1987-2004
his closest friend-
Eamon[/i]
Last night i walked over to vance's house to hang out for a few hours. i figured id spend some time with him, u know, chear him up a bit. i knew he could use some company. i figured it would be jest like any other nite. we'd watch tv, listen to some dimmu borgir, maybe order a pizza then read the forums. i was wrong. when i got to his hous his mther invited me in and told me vance was downstairs. she said hed been down there in teh basement all day. when i opened the door it was picht blck exept for the tv. i flicked on the black light and so vance lying on the couch and figgured he was alseep. i joking tossed him off the couch to get him up and when he fell over my heart sunk and i jumped back. there was dryed up blood staynes that painted the whole couch as well as his clothes. i saw a slash mark on his wrist... he mustve bled himself to death ...we used to play that game 'bleeder' and we were probably going to play it then but this time it wasnt a ggame... i panikked and i wanted to call 911 but i dodnt know if i could stay at the seen any longer. on the coffee table that was usually litterd with tampon porn and farside comics sat only a letter written in black gel pen. you know what this was... it said he had nowhere else to turn and that the world and god had abandoned him. it broke my black heart to read the sorrow and rage in the paper. i felt paralized with anger and sadness... i may have been his only friend in the world and if i had been there earlier maybe i coudlve chhanged the outcome of this hole senario. when i finally gained enough composure to go upstairs and tell him mother, she was nowhere to be found...she probably still hasnt come back yet and thinks her son is just being a lazy good-for-nuthing. i was at a los for actions. all i could do was go back downstairs and put him back on the couch... i know it couldnt have possibly been the right thing to do and im stressing aboiut weather or not i shouldve called somebody... but to see my friend like that put me nto a state of paralysis... there honestly wasnt a thing i could do in my mind that would rektify the situation...
it hurts using this board because he said he always used to come here adn read what you people had to say (althow he never posted much).
guys this im dead serious here. if there is anybody in your life that you can see is showing signs of instability or emotioanl difficulty please talk to him. make him opn up. i didnt know until i read the note that i was all that he had in the world. i jest wish there was more i coudlve done to save him...
Vance Lucas
1987-2004
his closest friend-
Eamon[/i]