i feel somehow lonely
ugly it be; desires displeased
be it ugly; undesireabley mispleased
untreasured loves unknowable
unloveable, uninterested unreal

Once in a morning
i hate myself
thinking myself
unavailable

i am low
creep the floor
push the dirt
close the door
crying fit
damn grace
out of place
witness
can i hear a witness

Myself i hate
Once in a Morning
believing myself
unavailable

Preservation of self
a remote objective
disowned loss
unloseable possession
a unfeeling thing
necessary, no matter

Believing in Myself
a unavailable hate
Once in a morning