that unless something miraclulous happens in the next 20 hours, I along with my extended faerie family will not be in attendance tomorrow night at 11th St.

Given the choice to pay all the bills and upgrade machines, along with the house cleaning and laundry hanging over my head...

or driving an hour each way for mediocre coffee (mine is sooo much better) and luke warm chaotic conversations (ok, not really , but really, you guys can't miss me that much already)

I will choose to stay home this weekend.

Oh yeah, and I'm sick, too, dammit.

This has nothing to do with EQ, and the promising adventurous weekend it will bring me. Really.

You guys just need to get your asses out of the armpit of East Tennessee and move back to the vulva.

no, you see, the vulva would be fun. and fun is not allowed in tennessee.

):

Oh, yes, and I also have debated on whether to post something as personal in nature as this, but some of you are already aware that my mother has cancer and is terminal.

Less than 6 months to live terminal. Considerably less.

I spoke to her on the phone tonight and the pain and exhaustion in her voice brought me to my knees.

I'm not posting this as a 'poor me' thread, but be informed that now that I have transportation it not only means I am able to come to Knoxville whenever I want, but it means I can also go see her, and take her only two (great) grand children to see her, and may do so at the drop of a hat. I also may not feel chatty, and if you IM me and I don't respond, don't take it personally.

She is the last of my family. It's nearly impossible to understand the pain of losing a father, a brother and a mother in less than 6 years.


Be patient with me and my bitchyness, ok?

Oh, and keep the suicide jokes to a tasteful (is that possible?) minimum.

Thank you.

I remember how harrowing it is to essentially be waiting for a parent to die.

LadyIvanna reaches through the puter to hug faeriegirl.

I've never lost a parent, but my grandmother died this past Dec. My heart breaks for you. We had been waiting for her to die and it felt like I had been run over by a Mack truck when she finally did. I know there are some that might be a bit insensitive, but I cannot conceive of anyone being low enough to make a suicide joke.
If you need for me to help with your children or anything else, please let me know. I'm not a mind reader(not yet...working on it), so you have to tell me.

i, too, have watch family members die and it is one of the hardest things you can endure. you can only stand by and watch and it hurts.

i ,too, am able to help with children watching, if need be.

my grandmother, albeit not like watching a parent suffer, has been in constant pain for 10 years. my family has resussiated her against her will twice in the past year. i can understand your pain and please do not hesitate to ask for any thing i can help with.

kimmie

I just typed a bunch of garbage and deleted it. I don't deal well with death wether it be a family member or a loss in a friends family. It's one of thoise subjects that makes me feel twice as socially inept as I normally feel.

Anyway, I am so sorry for what you are going through hun. I wish there was something I could do to help. You have had such a rough go of it over the past few years yet you have always bounced back. I admire this quality in you and hope that this internal strength that you display so frequently helps to cary you through yet another trying time.

If at any point you need anything, keep me and my family at the top of your contact list for as always you are a part of it.

Love you hun,

Jason

I lost my dad at 6 and my first step dad at 11.

Its tough and I send you my deepest heartfelt sympathies.

Rob

*Closing my eyes and building my Form within the Astral*

Enclosing my wings to surround thee with comfort and strength, know thee well that Anael takes thy prayers for thy mother to the First Heaven.

My thoughts and prayers are with you, Faeriegirl.

Jason has said everything I would like to have said only 100 times more eloquently. My prayers are with you and your family. If you need anything at all, I'm here for you as well.

iblis wrote:
and sadly enough, joking is my only tried and true method of dealing with tough situations.

I've only lost a few close family members, and laughter was luckily how my entire family chose to deal with it...it's just the way we are...

A few years ago, I was the only person in the house when my grandfather had a heart attack and died. I watched him go. The ambulance couldn't get there nearly in time, being that the house was way back on a curvy road off the beaten path.

Goddess Keep You and yours FG. Much love. ::hug::